Lately I should call this blog "my annoying co-worker" blog. I dont know. I like the girl, I truly do, but apparently my edginess has left me slightly intolerant of her normal babble.
Im not much of a people person. Thats right, I probably wouldnt like you.....or at least choose to spend extended amounts of time with you. There are times that I wish I was more sociable, but more often than not I am content on my own little planet feeding my own little ego and my vast variety of housepets who's company I am beginning to prefer to any humans. My biggest problem is caring about what people say. Most of the time I just hear blah, blah, blah and to be honest when I dont hear that, I am often sorry about the things I allow others to plant in my brain. It has to come out, and if you read this, it will be like a tiny mocro-chip being implanted into yours brain. At least it will be gone from mine.
Coworker has met several guys on line. She has a horrendous crush on one that she met last week and now that is her only topic of conversation. No wait......we did do lunch together last week and had an adult conversation......one where we both could relate. It is time for her 6 month evaluation adn possible raise. Her question to me was how much she should ask for. I couldnt really answer that for her. We are in separate departments and while I do know that she requires alot of help and has several questions about tasks that are absolutely imperative to understanding her role, Im not exactly the one to judge what she has learned here in the past 6 months. Was she even more stupid then?
I wouldnt give her a raise. If I were her supervisor she would be here for another 6 months and then re-evaluated. If you need assistance from me to figure out how to run your own reports and ask me to do it for you.......I would say you are stupid and need more training. Not to mention fearful of your own position.
My job has allowed very little training. Thank God I have already worked the industry so I am aware of alot of what goes on and understand the process to a large degree. It is also not in my basic makeup to wait for someone to tell me to do something or to wait around while my boss in on maternity leave and have a stack of questions for her when she returns. I can and will figure it out myself. The greatest compliment i have received since I started here was how impressed she was that I was willing to "take the bull by the horns" and get things done. I liked that. Comments like that make me think I have a valid reason for asking for a raise when it is review time. I dont need a sitter, dont want one. I will figure it out, make sure it is right and you can simply show your appreciation by saying nice things to me and giving me nice paychecks. Its a great arrangement. Not so in her case. She is always tired, always sore, always saying "I dont feel like working today" and then trying to call me into her office to show me more photos of this and that guy. I am to the point where I just say no. All the time. OTherwise I feel I will get sucked into that little world of make believe and my work mantra will become "I dont know"
So for 20 minutes this morning I listened to her ramble about her hour spent with Mr On Line last night. Great, I was truly interested in the SHORT VERSION of that event. Where she goes so terribly wrong is repeating herself.....repeatedly!!!! (hehe) Its like a mantra "I like him so much" "I like him so much" Do people not realize that every thought they have does not need to be verbalized at that moment in time. Particularly if the thought is obsessive????? That is a habit that has always annoyed me. It probably goes along with the fact that the majority of the time I am not listening, maybe others feel the need to help drive the information home for me. But when it does register and registers more than one time........my skin crawls. So as she stood at my desk, childishly knocking my pencils and pens from their places, flicking paper clips randomly around my desk.....I am proud to say that although I felt an overwhelming urge to slap her - I resisted the temptation.
I think I developed this hatred for repetition from MRLI. He has the same habit, although frequently he will re-arrange the wording so that it isnt the exact same sentence. I still hate it. I used to ask him if he repeated himself and reworded his sentences just to hear himself babble or if he actually thought I was so stupid I didnt get the first version. I found he wasnt really receptive to my sarcasm, it generally would cause a ridiculous arguement about how the sentence may sound the same - but it had a different intended meeting. At which point, if I were my obsessive co-worker, I would begin my own rant of "SHUT UP" "SHUT UP" because I also have no desire to entertain any sort of arguement, particulalry one that ends in nothing but my desire to throttle someone.
Thank God for the holidays. I hope you all find wonderful things in your life to be thankful for. I personally am thankful I will not be here even if my paycheck will suck in return. Im not a big fan of this time of year and all of its commercialism and greed. I hate shopping to Christmas music and while I love my extended family, there is a reason I dont spend anything but holidays with them. I miss my dad and wish he was still here to keep the rest of them seeming a bit more sane to me. My mother is great, but she thinks the entire family needs to be together - sheesh. :)
Happy Thanksgiving All!